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cordialenvy) wrote2011-01-01 12:25 am
cordialenvy) wrote2011-01-01 12:25 am
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And another year.
I -- last year, everything was so ... how is it, that I recall everything being so different when nothing has really changed? I was always Thomas' simple little doll, even before we were wed, isn't that so? And yet everything seems so ...
This is the life I dreamed of. This is what I always wanted. I got the wedding I dreamed of when I was a little girl, with a groom who cares for me more than anyone in the world could. More than I ever would have expected. And yet it all feels so ...
Bleak. One bleak day after another. Why can I not even find the strength to be angry about it now? Is it so hard? Why can he not -- not even look at me, some nights? I thought ... I thought that, when we were married, it would ...
What a foolish little child I've been.
And another year.
I -- last year, everything was so ... how is it, that I recall everything being so different when nothing has really changed? I was always Thomas' simple little doll, even before we were wed, isn't that so? And yet everything seems so ...
This is the life I dreamed of. This is what I always wanted. I got the wedding I dreamed of when I was a little girl, with a groom who cares for me more than anyone in the world could. More than I ever would have expected. And yet it all feels so ...
Bleak. One bleak day after another. Why can I not even find the strength to be angry about it now? Is it so hard? Why can he not -- not even look at me, some nights? I thought ... I thought that, when we were married, it would ...
What a foolish little child I've been.