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Jul. 31st, 2010 04:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
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And with every day that passes, more and more of it falls out of my hands.
Is this how every woman feels, when they wed? Watching the things they thought were theirs slip away forever? Watching themselves lose the things they had some semblance of control over ...
How much worse will it be, when Thomas and I are married?
I can't speak to him about this. He would never understand ... he would simply think I was being silly, and shallow. He can't understand how much ... how this is the thing I was bred for, all of my life, and now even it isn't in my control.
He could never understand that.
And with every day that passes, more and more of it falls out of my hands.
Is this how every woman feels, when they wed? Watching the things they thought were theirs slip away forever? Watching themselves lose the things they had some semblance of control over ...
How much worse will it be, when Thomas and I are married?
I can't speak to him about this. He would never understand ... he would simply think I was being silly, and shallow. He can't understand how much ... how this is the thing I was bred for, all of my life, and now even it isn't in my control.
He could never understand that.
